Watering Your Dream

“If people can’t see what God is doing, they stumble all over themselves; But when they attend to what He reveals, they are most blessed.” Proverbs 28:18 The Message Bible

I have to admit that there are times I find it hard to “see” what God is doing. When I focus on the world and the things happening in it I tend to get overwhelmed. When those times come, as they have done off and on all of my life, I have to push myself to focus on the good things of life. For my own physical and mental health I have to get my eyes off of the negative things and draw closer to God.

I went to a Like It Matters leadership training a few months ago. I have taken many leadership training’s. I have been called on to be a leader, quite to my surprise, many times in the past. However, up until now I did not have the tools to get past myself and be a true leader. I did not always see myself as a leader even when others saw that in me.

When I can not see myself doing something or doing it well, I don’t. I am a visual person in many respects. So when I can not see it, no matter what it is, I tend to fall short and back off. I lose my drive to push forward and accomplish my goal. “Without a vision my people perish” (That being said, there must be something extraordinarily wonderful about my relationship with my Lord & Savior for me to not “see Him”, yet I believe He is real and cherish my relationship with Him. (That was a cool revelation!))

What I have learned to do to help me is to keep my goals and visions where I can see them all the time. Keep them in front of me. Let them remind me What I Want. One process at Like It Matters was to find out “What Do You Want!” We were forced to drop our preconceived thoughts from our conscious mind and think of what was truly in our hearts. Out of the abundance of the heart, the mouth speaks. It’s the things we say without thinking of them that ate in the depths of our hearts. Ponder that one.

If I am saying negative things about myself or others, that’s what is embedded in my subconscious. It is my belief, and I  have read research to say I am close to being right on, “What we believe in our hearts (subconscious) we will unconsciously strive to make sure happens in our life.” Therefore, we continue to bring the cycle into effect by focusing on it and unconsciously doing things to bring us to the outcome we expect. Now, that does not mean we continue to say “I’m such an idiot!” and then do stupid things. My thought is that we think we are an idiot so we try something different and it does not work out, we can reinforce the opinion that “we are truly an idiot” for trying something new. On the flip side, when it does work out we assume we were “lucky”, instead of thinking we were smart for trying something new.

If I want to get past the barriers in my mind I have to “Re-Set” our thinking. I do this by posting pictures of what I want around me. I love beaches, therefore I have 2 paintings of beaches on the mantel in front of me. My sister was going to paint over them, so I saved them. (-: I have taken my picture with a certificate of an achievement I am striving for with me looking and feeling like I Passed! Then post it so I can visualize my passing a test or getting a job or finding something lost. I am re-setting my subconscious to believe I have already accomplished this. Then I unconsciously do whatever it takes to get this done, because my subconscious mind needs it to be so so that I can feel comfortable.

Without a vision My people perish. Do you know “What You Want”? Do you feel the pangs of the desire to have something you know is good for you, yet you have not attained it yet? Try putting the vision out there, placing it at the feet of our Heavenly Father, and put reminders of what you want all around you. You might just find yourself reaching for your goal and attaining the prize.

Think about it. Ponder it. Pray about it. Post pictures about it. Keep the positive in the forefront of your mind. You may be pleasantly surprised. Until we talk again, may your life be filled with all the good things of God!

watering-watering-can-man-vietnam-162637.jpeg

 

Do Not Be Anxious About Anything

There is a scripture memory song that was published through Integrity Music back in the 80’s or early 90’s that covers Philippians 4:6-7 that has been playing over and over in my head. Verse 6: Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.

It seem’s to be an easier thing to say and remember when thing’s are doing good. How do we handle it when thing’s are getting sketchy or stressful or out of our control? Do we remember 2 Corinthians 13:14 which tells us that we have the amazing grace of The Master, Jesus Christ, and the extravagant love of God, and the intimate friendship of The Holy Spirit in our lives?

When we are anxiously waiting for a word from a child who left the house with the intention of ending their life. When we are looking at our ever-increasing debt. When we are thinking about how sick we are or our family member is. When I focus on the pile of issues I have in this life, it can be hard to see the grace, love and intimate friendship I have with The Trinity. When I am in those places, it takes strength only The Holy Spirit can give to STOP looking at the problems and Trust God Has It all under control.

Throughout many situations this past 2 or so years, my answer from God has been “Trust Me, I Got This”. I had begun to believe I was the only one He was saying this to until I found out one of my Pastor’s gave a message on it reacently. I let my feeling’s get a little hurt for a split second thinking “He has told me this for over 18 months now.” ‘It is for me”. Then I got out of my stupidity and realized that was for everyone. He wanted us all to know He had all our problems taken care of. From the smallest to the largest issues of life, when we allow The Holy Spirit to do what He was sent to do, we can have confidence that it will all be taken care of.

That in no way tells us to sit back and do nothing. We are still to walk out the thing’s we can do and pray for direction as we walk along that path. We are to TRUST in the Lord with all our hearts and lean not to our own understanding. Then, as it say’s in Phillipian’s 4:7, we will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard our hearts and minds as we live in Christ Jesus.

Think about it. Pray about it. Ponder it. Read your bible and see if you read the same thing. Then, when the issues of life try to rear their unrully heads, we can have confidence that there is light at the end of the tunnel because we are never truly alone. God is always with us and truly loves us.

Until next time, Cele

One Life To Live

Tonight I watched a movie, The Ultimate Life, and was reminded of some thing’s I had placed in the recesses of my memory. The fact that we only have one life to live on this earth is sometimes lost when we focus on our day to day activities. We tend to forget that we are not promised tomorrow. We may not have another time to tell those people we love how precious they are to us. We may not have another hour to breath in the beauty of the seanic things God has placed in our lives, like a new born baby, a colorful sunrise or sunset, the face of our children or spouce, a beautiful piece of art. We won’t alway’s be around to protect the ones we love or provide for them. We might not get another chance to choose life over death by asking for forgiveness for our sins and asking Jesus Christ to be our Lord and Savior.

One of the biggest thing’s on my heart for much of my life has been to pass on a heritage of love, joy, prosperity, and peace of mind. All of the thing’s that come from having a relationship with my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ. I spend many hours thinking of and praying for my family, their friends, my friends, all of their current and future mates and their children, and for myself and my husband.

I realized tonight that the one area I have lacked in recently is in giving them time. All the money and promises in the world do not replace face to face time. I talk on the phone off and on, I share short stints of time, but I have not invested much time, in my opinion, as I would like to have spent. It was a blessing when I took the time to spend a few hours last week with my oldest daughter. My heart sings when I am able to see all of the people I love because the time is so precious for me.

I think that is what our Heavenly Father must go through with us. He grieves when we get so busy we forget to spend time with Him. I am sure He wonders when we will take the time to say hello or share our thought’s, hopes and dream’s with Him. I’m sure He get’s excited when we take the time to recognize He is there and that we know He loves us. I believe He is overjoyed to be able to help us when we need Him. I know He enjoy’s giving us gifts when we least expect it. And I know He is there to hold us close when we are going through the trials and tribulations of this life. I know this because those are thing’s I love to do for those I love and I learned it from Him.

In this movie, there was a man that said his mother taught him to write 10 thing’s to be thankful for each day. I have heard people say to write 3 thing’s and some day’s it seem’s hard to do that. It seem’s to me that 10 things is, although it might be harder to see some day’s, a much better task to take on. So I will start right now to make it a habit to write 10 thing’s. 1) Salvation 2) healthy children and grandchildren 3) my kid’s have wonderful friends 4) a loving husband 5) a warm home 6) great friend’s 7) a sound mind 8) great food to eat 9) I can color my hair myself 10) I am loved

Maybe you want to think of 10 things each day to be thankful for. God has blessed us with so many reason’s to be thankful. There may be some day’s you will have to look back on old list’s to think of anything to be thankful for. There may be times you will need a friend to help you find something to be thankful for. However, if we look for the positives the triles and tribulation’s of our day will not be the focus of our lives.

Think about it. Ponder it. Pray about it. Then let the Holy Spirit guide you when making your list. You may be suprised to see how easy it is to find thing’s to be thankful for. Until we talk again, may you be richly blessed! Cele

2d766608b276c167931d688559f0a859

Do Not Be Anxious About Anything

There is a scripture memory song that was published through Integrity Music back in the 80’s or early 90’s that covers Philippians 4:6-7 that has been playing over and over in my head. Verse 6: Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.

It seem’s to be an easier thing to say and remember when thing’s are doing good. How do we handle it when thing’s are getting sketchy or stressful or out of our control? Do we remember 2 Corinthians 13:14 which tells us that we have the amazing grace of The Master, Jesus Christ, and the extravagant love of God, and the intimate friendship of The Holy Spirit in our lives?

When we are anxiously waiting for a word from a child who left the house with the intention of ending their life. When we are looking at our ever-increasing debt. When we are thinking about how sick we are or our family member is. When we focus on the pile of issues we have in this life, it is hard to see the grace, love and intimate friendship we have with The Trinity. When we are in those places it take strength only The Holy Spirit can give to STOP looking at the problems and Trust God Has It all under control.

Throughout many situations this past 2 or so years, my answer from God has been “Trust Me, I Got This”. I had begun to believe I was the only one He was saying this to until reacently, when I found out one of my Pastor’s gave a message on it. I let my feeling’s get a little hurt for a split second when I heard about it thinking “He has told me this for over 18 months now.” ‘It is for me”. Then I got out of my stupidity and realized that was for everyone. He wanted us all to know He had all our problems taken care of. From the smallest to the largest issues of life, when we allow The Holy Spirit to do what He was sent to do, we can have confidence that it will all be taken care of.

That in no way tells us to sit back and do nothing. We are still to walk out the thing’s we can do and pray for direction as we walk along that path. We are then to TRUST in the Lord with all our hearts and lean not to our own understanding. Then as it say’s in Phillipian’s 4:7, we will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard our hearts and minds as we live in Christ Jesus.

Think about it. Pray about it. Ponder it. Read your bible and see if you read the same thing. Then, when the issues of life try to rear their unrully heads, we can have confidence that there is light at the end of the tunnel because we are never truly alone.

Until next time, Celepexels-photo-764880.jpeg

How Confident Am I Anyway

In 1 John 14 & 15 we see a statement that, if it is believed deep within us, we can stand on and be confident in. “This is the confidence that we have in approaching God: that if we ask anything according to His will, He hears us. And if we know that He hears us – whatever we ask – we know that we have what we asked of Him.”

How many times in your life have you asked God for something and assumed, even before you asked, that your request was not going to be answered? I am emberrised to say that I know I have done it a time or two or 10 times maybe. I don’t know if it is because I assumed my request was not important enough or that I was not asking the right question or for the right thing, or maybe it was because I felt it was a selfish request. Maybe it was because I was asking for something for another person who didn’t see or know they needed what I was asking for.

Whatever it was, I can tell you that even when I didn’t think it would ever be answered, there were times I did receive what my heart desired. Sometimes it was something I asked for that was so outrageous I couldn’t even imagine how or why God would answer such a request. Like when I asked God for a son because I knew my husband wanted one. I thought it would make him happy and would help our marriage. I also wanted more children and since I had had my tubes tied 5 years before, I did not see how that would happen. But I did buy a baby card that said “It’s a Boy!”

7 years later we were living in we were foster parent’s. We had had 2 young children whom we had hoped to adopt get taken from our home abruptly after the case worker got into an argument with my husband. We had a young boy in our care that, although he had some major issues, we thought we would consider adopting. Add to that the fact that we had just changed from a county foster system to a private company. But I still had hopes that, since I was still in the child bearing years of life, God could perform a miracle.

One day I received a call about fostering a new born baby girl. Both parent’s had HIV and the child might have it as well. She would be staying for an unknown amount of time and would go with her mother to her home country when her mother was deported. Would we take her? Heck Yes was my reply. Then I called and told my husband. (I was supposed to ask him first, but was so excited I forgot)

I got busy checking in with the Aids Consortium to get all the information I could get. I was planning a birthday party for my oldest daughter. I was preparing to receive a newborn and I was doing the rest of the thing’s a wife and mother does to manage a home when I got the next call: Cele? yes, it turn’s out this is a boy, do you still want to take him? Yes of course. Well, you are to pick him up Tuesday morning in Denver. OK      Oh my gosh! I could feel it in my spirit that this was the answer to my prayer for a son.  It didn’t matter that he was supposed to go to another country with his mother. I knew that God had told me this was my son. He even confirmed it by having him born on my sobriety anniversary.

Imagine my pain when I handed him back over to his birth mother in the airport on her way home. I had had him 7 months, after waiting 7 years. I knew he would be back. God had promised me that. But at this particular time in the process, I was heartbroken and weary. I knew his mom loved him and wanted him to be with her. I knew it was the right thing to do. After all, we had been her advocates to make sure the US did not hold her in INS indefinitely since there was a hold in deportations to their country. We had gone to bat to make sure her son, who was a US citizen, could leave with his mother at an age young enough that he could bond with his birth mother.

Three month’s later my husband, daughter and I were standing in the airport in a spanish speaking country waiting to be picked up. We did not speak Spanish, had no idea where we were and had no idea how to contact his mother. We did know a missionary whom God had provided to interpolate for us one of the day’s we were there and who had been diligent to check up on Felix over the 3 month’s he was there. (A long story which I will share at another time) Then our ride showed up! It was such a joy to see this young boy again! My heart leaped when I saw him. He had lost weight, but was still in good health.

While we were there the missionary came and interpreted for us. We found out that the babies parents wanted us to bring him back to the US for a visit. They told us they would come up and get him later. I said Yes right away, but my husband hesitated. He said we would do it if we could do it legally. OH my gosh! Really? No, I wanted him to come back no matter what! But the missionary helped me see that was the best choice so it would happen if we could do it legally. I desperately want to tell you all the details of how wonderfully God provided for that to happen, but there is no time right now. I can tell you that he is now 20 years old and he is my son whom I love dearly. He has some issues he is dealing with, but I know God is faithful and that He is in control.

When I asked God for a son, I didn’t really know He would follow through and allow me to have a son. I hoped He would. Believed he would “If it was His will”. Trusted that I would have a son one day, somehow. I even bought a pregnancy test a couple of times just in case He had decided to reverse my tubes back to their normal state. I figured that if Sarah could have a child when she was old and Mary could have a child as a virgin, God could make a way for me to have a child. But it didn’t happen the way I thought it would. It wasn’t as easy as just getting pregnant and having a child. It wasn’t even a child that had the same herritage as anyone else I knew. He was unique in the way He manifested this miracle. What a blessing.

Are there areas in your life in which you have wanted to ask God for something but thought it was not really something you needed, it was just something that would make your heart sing a little, but you could live without. Why would you ask God for something like that anyway. After all, He is busy dealing with the more important thing’s in the world.

Let me remind you right here and now, I felt the same way. I went through and still go through the same battles in my head on occasion. Don’t allow the enemy to rob you of the gifts God has for you! Your Father in Heaven loves you with an everlasting love. He want’s to shower you with gifts that will make your heart sing. He loves to give good gifts to His children. The only requirement is that we ask Him for things. There will be times that the answer will be no or not now. I am not going to tell you that everything you ask for will positivly come to you. It does say “that if we ask anything according to His will, He hears us.” When the answer is No or Not yet, try not to allow it to weigh you down. It does not mean He does not Love you and want the best for you. Just like I said in an earlier post, sometimes it is not the best thing for us. Don’t allow the enemy to build up a wall between you and your Heavenly Father because of an unanswered prayer. You may not know the reason for it now, but you will know it when the time is right. Hold on and trust that our God is faithful and He loves us very much.

These are thing’s to think about. To pray about. To meditate on and talk to God about. You will find the answers to what you are looking for if you search with your heart open to what The Lord has to say to you. He does want to give good gifts to His children, so keep asking.

Until we talk again, Be Blessed! Cele        (the picture is a random one. It is not my son)pexels-photo-240145.jpeg

I Wanta Be Loved By You

What a remarkable day! I woke up with the words to a song playing over and over in my mind. “I wanna be loved by You, loved by You, loved by You, loved by You.” Have you ever considered how few people comprehend the reality of God’s desire to love us? He is love and loved us so much He sent His only begotten son to take our place on the cross as atonement (satisfaction or reparation for a wrong or injury: amends) for our sins. For the things we would do throughout our lives that were against His will.

In The blog I read each day the writer pointed out that if you want to know the Love and Deity of Jesus we should read what John, the disciple whom Jesus loved, wrote about Him. When I got married people said that we were moving way to fast and we did not know each other well enough so people felt we should wait.

I look at my relationship with my Lord and Savior and consider how quickly that moved. I had heard of him all on my life, but I did not know Him personally until one day in the mid 80’s when I was introduced to Him personally for the first time. He already loved me, but for me it was love at first sight. I knew little about having a personal relationship with Him so there were a bunch of mistakes I made in the first few years. I’m still making mistakes now. Yet I didn’t say no to Him just because I didn’t know that much about who He really was. I jumped in with both feet and am so thankful I did.

What you all don’t know is that I was already told by God that I would find my husband and be married before my birthday that year. When I saw my husbands profile I felt in my spirit that God told me he was the husband God had set aside for me. When there were 2 segments of time that we didn’t communicate I told The Lord that I trusted Him and that if he was to be my husband, I knew thing’s would work out. And, since we are married, you have already guessed that it did. From the first time we met, we felt drawn to each other. We prayed about every move we made. We didn’t do anything without it being confirmed to both of us after we prayed about it. We were totally trusting God. We spent close to 60 hours or more a week on the phone talking to each other and getting to know each other.

In considering how much time I invested in getting to know my husband I am a bit ashamed to admit I do not spend that much time reading God’s word and praying each week. I have not consistently invested that much time into my relationship with the savior of the world whom I say I worship and adore. So what does that tell me? That my priorities are not as I have professed them to be. I am not saying that we all have to give up talking to everyone else and our jobs and our kids and everything else so we can spend all our time focusing on God. What I am saying is that it is important to look and be realistic about the time we invest in our personal relationship with The God of this universe, The Great I AM.

I have chosen to fast from media games for this 21 day’s of fasting and prayer. I was spending many hours playing them instead of paying attention to the christian teachers I was watching or listening to. I was playing them while I was on the phone. I was playing them for hours a day. Now I am focusing on my prayers, who I am listening to, watching, texting, talking to on the phone or in person. I am doing the thing’s I profess to be doing.

How about you? Have you tried to text and drive? Play games instead of focus on your kids? Talk on the phone when you are with other people? Is your phone or computer or TV your priority? When you are with someone are you both focusing on your phones instead of each other? If you are doing these thing’s to your friends and family how do you expect that your relationship with your God will be any better? What do you truly love? Phones? TV? Computers? Is God even on the list?

Are you a Christ Follower or a Technology Follower? Can you think of way’s you can change your bad habits and make them good habit’s? What do you really want to be first in your life?

Think about it. Pray about it. Consider and ponder it. Until we meet up again, Be blessed! Celepexels-photo-256807.jpeg

What are we missing?

Have you ever had the thought that there must be something going on behind the scenes and you just can not see it? Have there been question’s you have had playing in your mind that keep running over and over but you just do not seem to have an answer?

Interestingly enough, last night I was blessed enough to spend the night with my grandchildren. While they sleep they listen to a local Christian music radio station. Because of that being on I wondered how The Lord would tie in today’s readings and blog post into my thoughts for today. It took a bit, but by this evening I had confirmed that, once again, the daily routine was related and I saw how they were connected.

The blog I read reminded me that sometimes God does not fill us in on the detail’s of why He chose to or is choosing to do something His way and not ours. Throughout my day I saw thing’s that reminded me that “A person convinced against their will is of the same opinion still” and that the way we each look at things can be drastically different. I also was reminded that some people “do not want to see the truth even when it is proven to be the truth”.

My grandchild said something today that spoke death into her life. Immediately after she spoke it I corrected her and explained to her that what she said was important. That by what she said, she could bring good things or not so good things into her life. It was not easy to explain it to a child, but I know The Holy Spirit was guiding me and will help her comprehend it. Life and death Is in the power of the tongue. When we talk about something and say “______ is killing me”, it just might do that in the long run.

When our prayer group asked us to pray for a child who had shot themself with a gun, I did not know how to pray. I know that “God can do anything you know.  Far more than you could ever imagine or guess or request in your wildest dreams!” Eph 3:20 MSG. What I did not know is what he would do.  It reminded me of the time I found out my dad had had a massive heart attack. I prayed that God would allow him 15 more years, like he did with the king in the old testament. What I did not ask for, because I did not know it mattered, was that he be able to fully recover from that and live a healthy life until his time had come to leave this world. My dad did live about 15 more years, but he did it with dismal health. He had cancer 5 times and many bouts of angina. By the time he passed away he was tired and didn’t want to be here any longer.

There are always things that are happening behind the scenes. God has a way to set thing’s up to end up where they are supposed to be in the first place. Meaning, sometimes the relationship you just ended is a good thing. Sometimes the lay off is the best thing that could have happened to you. Sometimes being very sick is a way to get you to realize you are not taking care of yourself. I do not believe God “makes us sick to teach us something”, yet I do realize that sometimes He allows bad thing’s to happen to good people because He has the privilege of knowing what the future holds if the answer would be yes or no. It is the way we handle such situations that show’s who we are on the inside.

When thing’s happen to you are you like Adam and Eve, always ready to pass the buck and blame it on someone or something else?  Do you ever admit that you were wrong or does your pride hold you back from admitting you might have hurt someone, said something mean or out of line, done something that hurt someone’s feeling’s, gotten so angry you said thing’s you know were mean and hurtful but don’t remember them being that mean, spoken against someone because you felt they had done something wrong, then found out they were right but you missed the important detail’s that showed that and now do not want to be embarrassed by having to apologize or admit to the person you gossiped to or about that you said nothing?

The enemy of our soul’s does not want us to see the truth, admit we are prideful, admit we are wrong, or apologize for our action’s. He is not into letting us see the truth because then we can be set free. Does not want us to be certain that he even exists. He would prefer that we blame everything on God. He tries to show up looking like a nice guy but is only there to steal, kill and destroy. Don’t be deceived, God is not mocked. What ever you sow, you will reap. So my suggestion is that you choose wisely the thing’s that you do and say. I am sharing this from the place of someone who has had to go “eat my own word’s” a few to many times already.

This message is long and goes in a few direction’s. But that is the way my day went. I made good choices and not so good choices. I made sure I spent time with my Heavenly Father in prayer and in His Word. I stumbled by eating something past 7pm which was my end time. (Something I was fasting from for the 21 day’s of prayer and fasting.)  I even saw how event’s from my past can bring clarity to me in the here and now. I did some right thing’s today and some thing’s I could have handled much better.

Are there times when you have allowed yourself to be so ingrained into believing something is one way that you can not or will not believe it is not true?  Have you chosen to believe a lie because it is more believable than the truth?  Do you readily accept it when you have done someone wrong and do everything in your power to apologize or admit your wrongs?  Are you able to see your faults and not blame them on anyone or anything else?

Think about it. Pray about it. Ponder it and consider what reality really is. Ask The Holy Spirit to give you clarity and discernment. Your prayers will be answered.

Until we talk again, Be blessed! Cele

pexels-photo-235615.jpeg